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single word explanation: laziness.
or a sudden lack of motivation to write anything?
it's pretty much the same.
crap.
i feel so barren.
i am the sahara.
no oasis in sight at the moment.
no rainfall to quench my arid throat.
no life to spring forth for a while.
acedia.
not a good thing, i tell you.
i'm used to confusion but i have never felt this way before to anybody.
i can't decipher my preferences.
to love or to hate?
crap. both.
why am i feeling sad again?
sabing ayoko na eh.
You Are 60% Abnormal |
 You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
You Are 84% Cynical |
 You're cynicism borders on paranoia. Worry less. You're out to get the world as much as it's out to get you. |
You Are 84% Bipolar |
 You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life. Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder. |
You Are 35% Feminine, 65% Masculine |
 You are in touch with your masculine side. You are not overly sensitive and not easily moved. Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart! |
You are Apricot |
 Soft and sweet, you let your provocative nature shine through. You have a true love for all people. You try to build a bridge between differences. You are definitely unconventional, but you don't broadcast it. You are good at getting along. You offer people a fresh perspective on life - so fresh that it can be shocking! |
You Are 89% Misanthropic |
 You are misanthropic to the point of being scary. In your view, people are a disease. You may want to lighten up a little - before you become a super villain! |
You Are 82% Non Conformist |
 You're incredibly strange. And a weirdness like yours takes skill to cultivate! No one really understands you. And you're cool with that. You just hope you never have to understand them! |
You Are a Total Procrastinator |
 If you can a task off, you will. You hate doing chores and work. Almost all of your tasks get done late, if they even get done at all. You often find life overwhelming and stressful. You feel like you'll never get everything done. You spend more time worrying about your responsibilities than taking care of them. It's likely that you procrastinate because you have too much to do... or aren't doing the right things. Learn how to let go of what's trivial and focus on what matters. Do the important stuff right now! |
You Are 60% Politically Radical |
 You've got some radical viewpoints, but you aren't completely nuts. You're more of a visionary than a radical. |
You Are 85% Skeptic |
 You're no cynic, but you are a complete skeptic. You don't buy into anything without proof - and you'll challenge any established "fact". In your view, evidence is what matters. You don't believe things based on hope. In fact, you wouldn't even be likely to say you "believe" anything. Believe implies faith. |
You Are 64% Nerdy |
 You are a pretty big nerd, and you're getting nerdier every day. Don't worry if you don't have friends... there's always robots. |
| Your International Spy Name is Fiona Sparks |
 You Reside in: Geneva Why You're a Good Spy: You're agile |
| Your International Spy Name is Fiona Sparks |
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You Reside in: Geneva Why You're a Good Spy: You're agile |
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<strong>Your Life Path Number is 5</strong>
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Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.<br />
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You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.<br />
You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.<br />
You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.<br />
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In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.<br />
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You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.<br />
Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.<br />
You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.
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Introspective
Sensitive
Reflective
| You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. But your relationships with your friends are highly intensive, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you need in order to feel good. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time; you rarely become bored. |
free enneagram testpa'no kung hindi?
para sa'n pa ang pakpak ng mga anghel?
damn.
which way to go, now?
can i just die? please?
Your Colors Say You Are Fearless |
 When you are at peace, you are: Deeply stable When you are moved to act, you are: Courageous and resolute When you are inspired, you are: Spontaneous and adventurous When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Connected to nature and the world Your life's purpose is: To change the world |
There Are 0 Gaps in Your Knowledge |
 Where you have gaps in your knowledge: No Gaps! Where you don't have gaps in your knowledge: Philosophy Religion Economics Literature History Science Art |
(speaking in paradox was never my intention.)
i don't know how to react. (heck, and when have i even learned how to?)
a piece of news which isn't at all certain. hell. should i be disturbed? or excited?
(hmm...i can't disclose the details.)
the prospects delight me, of course.
but the pessimist in me tells me not to expect. damn. the word expect. again.
but i'm quite surprised with myself. i never thought i would worry about things concerning my future. as you may have known, the only plan i have ever made for the imminent future is to go adrift along the flow, to just ride the current and let it take me wherever it wants to. yeah. bahala na si batman (o si superman o si the flash o si green lantern o yung buong justice league na para masaya) had been the mentality which guided me during the decision-making phase. haha. if what i did was really 'decision-making', because some of the choices i made were mere products of chance and nominal prejudice.
what shall i do? dunno. bahala na lang uli...si tiny tony.
whatever.
yaya.
:P
- Mood:
enthralled
I DON"T NEED YOUR S-Y-M-P-A-T-H-Y.
dare not sigh when you are next to me,
dare not pat my back with empathy,
dare not stare with eyes full of pity,
dare not! for i don't need sympathy.
no need to shed the poignant tears,
no need to say the kindest expressions,
no need to assuage my worst fears,
no need! for i loathe lacrymations.
insult me, when you heave a sigh,
insult me, when when you start to cry,
insult me, when you say get by,
for life is worthy of each try.
i know that i have lost hope.
you don't need to remind me of that fact.
each time you look at me like i'm in need of mercy,
every time you advise me like an ignorant fool,
you are not helping at all, my dear beloved,
you're just making the pain a lot more worse.
sympathy is the adversary of conceit.
i wish you learn your lesson.
*i almost forgot; there's this one kind of sympathy which i dislike the most.
it's the fake sympathy you receive from people whose concern is only caused by their mere desire to be known as 'humane'
(f**k off!) yes, i hate my own kind as much as i hate myself. ha. ha.
- Mood:
determined
NIL DESPERANDUM
NIL DESPERANDUM
NIL DESPERANDUM
- Mood:
aggravated
Hmm...why him? Why not Dr. House?
Well, he gave a kiss to this girl who has cancer. Absolutely unethical...but he was able to grant the kid's wish.
Haha. Does that mean I'm asking for a kiss, too? Damn.
